Obligatory Birthday Post.

So yeah, another year has passed. A lot has happened within a span of one year. Got heartbroken, broke somebody's heart (well I still count as somebody right?), sank into the pits of despair and then swore to take over the world.

Okay, kindly ignore the last sentence and I will be moving on shortly.

Moving on meaning more and more egocentric ramblings from me, I am now officially 21 years old, way past the age of minority and still feeling like I've just stumbled upon adolescence. That's what you get when you've been avoidant for like 19 years of life, events pile up at an exponential rate. At first, nothing much happens and then *BAM* things happen way too fast and I can barely deal with them.

Older means wiser right? Wrong. I feel like I'm the biggest Idiot in the world right now. Idiot with a capital I. I'm heading nowhere, still stuck halfway between the eggshell and the real world. I'm supposed to be graduating this year but thinking of the future gives me a headache. Zetsubou mode, I know.

This is hardly fitting for a birthday post. Gah. I fail.

But then again, Uretz isn't exactly Uretz unless Uretz is being all emo and shit.

Don't get me wrong a lot of AWESOME things have happened. I just tend to write the negative first. Somebody just whack me on the head with a baseball bat. Maybe I'll make more sense if you guys did that.

So basically I owe it a lot to my friends that I'm still here. I'm glad that I have a reason not to drift. That even though I'm still as cynical as ever, I still get to enjoy the here and now , all because I have friends who believe in me even though I subject them to hours of self-pity talks. Confidence isn't really something I have and given my low self-esteem, I wouldn't be doing a lot of things if those guys didn't drag me out to do stuff. You guys are AWESOME. I'm living more these days and I guess you've influenced me to be a bit less self-depreciating.

Writing this at around 1:30 in the morning, and to tell the truth, I really can't think of anything much to say right now. Will prolly update this later this evening. That's all for now.

Of politics

Admittedly, I've never really been interested in politics. Call me apathetic, I just couldn't really bring myself to care back then. But things have changed. Not drastically though but they did change. I guess it has something to do with the university after all, after almost 4 years of having been in this university, I guess some of its ideology have rubbed off on me. I'm not saying that I'm going to join the rallies any time soon (maybe I will someday, but that's another topic all together) but I guess I've learned first-hand that politics is not something that I can ignore forever. The government isn't something that isn't any of my business. I used to think that I'm not going to be affected by this whole government shiznit, like it's their business, not mine.

The way things are in our country right now, it's really disheartening , to say the least.